it's after midnight as i write this. i've been reviewing some of what i've written over the months. for the most part this blog should have been named, "love letters to jason". this is where i come to write what i feel whether i have been glowing in the aftermath of his warmth and passion or craving him or devastated by circumstances regarding our illicit affair.
he is my muse, of that there is no denying. he moves my emotions in every direction possible. and even when i feel angry at him or frustrated with him because of those circumstance, i love him and would take him into my arms without hesitation.
so here i am again, focused entirely on him, my feelings for him and yet i know i need to let things be. in many ways this is more his journey than mine. i was along for the ride for a time but now all am is a bystander.
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