i would like the chance

 ...to show you how it could be,

what might be.

but perhaps i am living in an illusion.

i hope that's all it is.

if not we will both lose.  

i would like the opportunity

to be happy in love,

to not just love

but to remain in love,

to nurture the desire we share.

the two of us could do that.

i know this.

but you have to want this

as much as i do.

you say you want more,

you want your freedom.

you could have that

and still have me.

i do not need you

to insure me 

or feed me

or house me

or take care of me.

i simply want you to be free enough

to make a little room for me.

drawing down the moon

it rained so i did not lay naked on the ground.  instead i stood in the dark, the moon hidden by the clouds, bearing my nakedness and my soul to the elements.  tears came and i begged All That Is for peace and hope and healing.  i closed my eyes and imagined the moon, invoking the goddess, and as she appeared i raised my arms to bathe in her light and breathe her into me, humbled by her presence and by all that surrounds in nature.  the planets, the elements have existed for millennia.  our lives here are so small and temporary.  the meaning anything in our lives has is that which we give it.  if there is greater meaning, it is a mystery to us and has always been.      

i want

 i want...

to cuddle naked

bodies touching

heat rising

lips meeting

hands reaching

bodies melding

i want...

to feel your desire growing 

tangible 

in my hand

against my skin

against my lips

i want...

to feel your fingers

explore my body

touching

teasing

penetrating me

i want...

your words of worship

that flow effortlessly

from your mouth

like honey

and fire

i want

i want

i want